Five Hours and a Hallelujah!
While at Starbucks this morning, a barista asked me if I were tired. I responded by saying, "No, I got FIVE HOURS of sleep last night!"
It is simply amazing. That was the most sleep I have gotten at one time in about two months. I'm so thrilled about this, for it possibly means that I'm now adjusting to the medications, and maybe soon I will be sleeping like normal. That would be good.
Other than getting the sleep, I have noticed that my hyperreligiosity (excessive preoccupation with things spiritual in nature) is coming back. At least I think it is coming back, or else my faith is just strengthening. It is virtually impossible for me to tell what is crazy faith and what is real faith.
I noticed that this symptom was coming back, however, when I starting thinking more about my upcoming remarks at my book signing. I'll tell you what was going through my mind: I was thinking that because I will have a large, captive audience, instead of talking much about the book, I should talk about Christ. I have been thinking that it would be a perfect time (and a perfectly inappropriate time) to reach the lost for God. I know absolutely that if I did that my book would tank and I would upset everyone at the book signing, but I have felt so compelled to do such a thing. My thinking last night was that even if I ruined every chance of my book ever selling, if I reached one soul for God then it would be worth it.
Since last night, I have decided not to ruin my book selling chances by talking religion, which offends everyone. I would like my blog readers to know that it is so incredibly hard for me not to talk religion though, and so in the future if there are religious entries that offend, please don't let that turn you off of my blog entirely.
One thing I might talk about, if asked in the Q and A, is hyperreligiosity itself—though I won't preach to the people at all (or else I will try not to). I'll keep you all posted on how it goes.
It is simply amazing. That was the most sleep I have gotten at one time in about two months. I'm so thrilled about this, for it possibly means that I'm now adjusting to the medications, and maybe soon I will be sleeping like normal. That would be good.
Other than getting the sleep, I have noticed that my hyperreligiosity (excessive preoccupation with things spiritual in nature) is coming back. At least I think it is coming back, or else my faith is just strengthening. It is virtually impossible for me to tell what is crazy faith and what is real faith.
I noticed that this symptom was coming back, however, when I starting thinking more about my upcoming remarks at my book signing. I'll tell you what was going through my mind: I was thinking that because I will have a large, captive audience, instead of talking much about the book, I should talk about Christ. I have been thinking that it would be a perfect time (and a perfectly inappropriate time) to reach the lost for God. I know absolutely that if I did that my book would tank and I would upset everyone at the book signing, but I have felt so compelled to do such a thing. My thinking last night was that even if I ruined every chance of my book ever selling, if I reached one soul for God then it would be worth it.
Since last night, I have decided not to ruin my book selling chances by talking religion, which offends everyone. I would like my blog readers to know that it is so incredibly hard for me not to talk religion though, and so in the future if there are religious entries that offend, please don't let that turn you off of my blog entirely.
One thing I might talk about, if asked in the Q and A, is hyperreligiosity itself—though I won't preach to the people at all (or else I will try not to). I'll keep you all posted on how it goes.
Andrew, I think it's great to hear you are sleeping better...the meds must be
settling in. I think you did a masterful
presentation at the book signing, especially with the questions. I think you did the right thing about the thoughts of sharing Christ. He is only
one who understands us completely & is
the one who put reservations about it in
your mind. Faith in Christ is a sacred
subject, and business events aren't usually the place where you can really
make an impact. I found that in business it is best to be a good businessman first, share your faith when
you get to the right place with your contacts,etc. I don't want to judge any
of your book supporters, but the Bible
does caution to use discretion with
sharing sacred things. I want to ask you if you have a healthy sense of accomplishment over the book...did you
feel the atmosphere of respect for you at the talk you gave? just wondering...63174
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I think that is very wise advice. Usually I even know better, but something crazy in me can't help it; that is why I'm about one step away from preaching on a street corner sometimes. But in the end, better judgment prevailed and I gave a more appropriate speech. I'm thankful for that. I do feel a tremendous amount of accomplishment having published this book, even more so because I know how hopeless I had been about not ever being productive again. I wish I could tell you I felt the atmosphere of respect (I'm sure it was there), but I was so incredibly stressed out and nervous that I don't really remember what I even said during my talk...only bits and pieces--but that is normal for me. The only way I can really tell what my talk was like and what impact it had was to talk to people from the audience and ask them. So thank you for sharing with me your thoughts on this.
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