I didn't take my meds today; I forgot. I think that is the second or third time that I have forgotten in about a week. The reason I am forgetting is that I changed the time of day that I take my meds. I used to take them at night before bedtime, but now I switched to the morning. When I took them at night, I would never forget, but now, I am forgetting way too often.

Usually I can't much feel when I forget my meds, but today I could—I felt quite unmotivated and sluggish. Most antipsychotics are very sedating, so you would think that I would feel sluggish if I took them, not if I forgot. However, the medicine I'm on now is actually a bit stimulating (and doesn't have the severe weight gain associated with it).

I'm also wondering if I'm forgetting to take my meds because I'm doing so well. Up until recently, I was always conscious of the fact that I have schizophrenia, and so I couldn't possibly just forget about taking the medicines. Despite doing all this work with mental illness, when I wake up in the morning I don't think about being ill; I just think about getting a coffee. It wasn't until about 4:30 PM today that I realized I had forgotten to take my meds, and that was because I became conscious of the fact that I wasn't doing so well today. As symptoms go, I'm virtually symptom-free.

One symptoms is increasing though, and that is my hyperreligiosity. Hyperreligiosity is the excessive preoccupation with religion or the occult. I feel that my crazy faith is increasing, and while I should be concerned about it (if I can't control it I will damage relationships and hurt my book sales), I'm not. Having an elevated faith feels good and I like it. It is a dangerous line to toe, and I suppose I will have to put even more effort into controlling my behavior in this regard. Actually, I am writing an article for a website and I am now thinking I will write it on the experience of hyperreligiosity. That might be interesting to readers. Once I get it written, I will post a link to the article on my blog.